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THE ART OF SILENCE
YUKO SATO ONDREJKA
沈黙道
沈黙の道。沈黙は黄金である。私は今日、初回の弁護士との打ち合わせでその練習をした。先週の火曜日も、１ヶ月ぶりに電話をかけてきた元主人との会話でも使用した。そして、３度離婚し４回目の結婚を誇らしげに語る通訳が結婚制度を潔く肯定している話を聞いている時にも、勿論、練習を欠かしてはならない。
この極意を習得すればするほど、その力の偉大さに驚かされる。一言で言えば、反応を得意とする兵士を後退させ、正しく行動する兵士を前線に送ることができる戦術である。反応をやめるとそこにはドラマが発生しない。私の感情は、寝ている状態に近く、一喜一憂する準備すらできていないので、自然と前線から退却する。すると私の五感は正しく行動し始める。しかし、口を閉じているので、不思議と建設的な白昼夢を見ているような気持ちが頭をもたげてくる。この状態は、黄金を生み出す。
弁護士との打ち合わせでは、最悪のシナリオを感情を起こさずに最後まで聞くことできた。つまり、アル中で怠惰な元主人が娘の養育権を100パーセント取得し、かつ、娘が１８歳になるまで、養育費を主人に支払い、主人が職を得るまで、主人の食費も支払うという屈辱を白昼夢で観れる黄金のチケットを生み出した。
元主人がスカイプで私に電話をかけてきて、生活費の支払いと彼の車の修理費用を要求した時も、白昼夢の中で、彼の理不尽な要求を全て聞き、黄金に輝く録音ボタンを静かに押すことができた。私の感情は眠ったままだった。
通訳を買って出てくれた私の上司の一人が、３回の離婚経験と４人目の奥さんとの条件付きの愛の契約について肯定的に語っている時も、私はある種の目覚めた夢の状態で、黄金の微笑みを浮かべることができた。その後、彼がそのお返しとして黄金の通訳をしてくれた。
沈黙は黄金、演説は銀。感情は、間違いなく銅。
The art of silence
The art of silence. Silence is golden. I practiced it today in my first meeting with a lawyer. I also used it last Tuesday in a conversation with my ex-husband who called me for the first time in a month. I must exercise discipline. So I listened in silence to the interpreter who had divorced three times and proudly talked about his fourth marriage and graciously affirmed the marriage system.
The more you master this secret, the more you will be amazed at the greatness of its power. In a nutshell, it's a tactic that can retreat soldiers who are good at reacting and send soldiers who act correctly to the front line. If you stop the reaction, there is no room for any human drama. I let my emotions sleep and I'm not even ready to play emotional Yo-Yo, so I naturally beat a retreat from the front line. Then my five senses begin to take charge of the situation. With my mouth closed, the feeling of having positive constructive daydreaming comes to mind. This state produces gold.
In the meeting with the lawyer, I was able to listen to the worst case scenario to end up without emotion. In other words, I experienced the humiliation that a lazy alcoholic ex-husband could obtain 100% of custody for our 12-year-old daughter with me paying monthly child support to my ex-husband until our daughter turns 18 years old, plus paying his food allowance until he gets a job. The art of silence created a golden ticket that I could watch in a daydream theatre.
When my ex-husband called me on Skype over a month after he kicked me out of our flat and asked me to pay for the living and repair fee of his car, I listened to all his unreasonable demands in a daydream state and pressed the golden button of record. I let my emotions sleep.
Even when one of my bosses, who volunteered to interpret during the meeting with the lawyer, positively talked about his three divorce experiences and a conditional love contract with his fourth wife, I had some kind of awakened dream. In this state, I was able to produce a golden smile on my face. After that, he gave me back a golden interpretation.
The silence is golden and the speech is silver, surely the emotion is copper.
Edited by Ross McLelland